Friday, April 30, 2010

Quote of the week

I'm on twitter and I follow someone who only twitters quotes from One Tree Hill and I got a really good one today that I wanted to share:

"Now is the time for us to shine. A time when our dreams are within reach and possibilities vast. Now is the time for all of us to become the people we've always dreamed of being. This is your world, you're here. You matter. The world is waiting."

I  thought this was one of those quotes that you hear and think, "wow that was just what I needed." I think I am at an age and a position in life where I can do anything I set my mind to. I can just get started and my possibilities are endless. This quote made me want to go sign up for a fun class or something. Just something new from my boring little thing I have to call life right now. With all the stress I've been in with not getting our taxes and stuff this quote makes me want to do something that will relieve a little of that stress. Something that might get me ready to better handle more stress to come. Maybe even a work out class or something. We'll see. Anyways, that's all for now I'm signing out. Enjoy and I hope this quote spoke to you all the way it spoke to me. Now get out and do something fun!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Purse Game

So I saw this little game on a friend's blog and I thought I would give it a go. It actually gave me an excuse to clean out my mess of a purse. Ok so here is what happens when I just dump my purse out...

A HUGE mess I know! So I threw out the garbage and organized what was left and voila!

  • wallet
  • sunglasses
  • comb
  • gum
  • hand sanitizer
  • allergy medicine
  • lipgloss
  • fingernail polish (not sure how that got in there but it stayed)
  • lotion
  • prescription sunglasses
  • also my phone but I was taking the picture with it
K now everyone else can do the same! For those like me, this is a good chance to organize your crap. For already organized people, well this will be for fun!

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Now, can I just vent for a minute? A couple of days ago I made a list of things that I love hoping that it would cheer me up. It did...for a second. I don't know what is wrong with me but I just feel so grumpy! So if I am grumpy to you I apologize I am workin on it. But, I just am so frustrated with things around the house. And I know everyone is just trying to help by telling me what to do with the situation but it just makes me stress about it more. I wish I could express how much easier said than done this whole thing really is. It is just such a tough situation that only makes me grumpy when I talk about it so, how bout we make a deal and not even talk about it? I know what I NEED to do, I know what I SHOULD or SHOULDN'T do, but none of that matches what can really be done. And I know what you are all thinking, "It can be done, just do it." Again, easier said than done. I would gladly trade positions with any of you so you could realize how tough it really is. I'm sure you ALL probably disagree so, just keep it to yourself haha. Anywho, I think I am done for now. Felt good to kind of blab for a second. Now, any ideas on what can cheer me up a bit? OH I know! I have cheesecake in my fridge! Bon apetite!


Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Oh how I love...

"Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."

I truly believe this. But, I have been having a really hard time with it lately. For some reason lately I have been only focused on the things I get annoyed with and the things I really actually hate. For those that know me probably know exactly what I am talking about. So, today I am going to blog about things that I LOVE. I think for everything that bothers you, you should think of 3 things you enjoy. That means, for me, I have A LOT of catching up to do. This is what I have so far...

Oh how I love really hot bubble baths.
Oh how I love being able to walk outside at night without needing a jacket.
Oh how I love the feeling of accomplishing a lot in one day.
Oh how I love knowing that I can put full trust in someone.
Oh how I love cinnamon rolls right out of the microwave.
Oh how I love the first gulp of a cold mt. dew.
Oh how I love getting compliments because they can be rare.
Oh how I love being in jammies all day.
Oh how I love a good cry.
Oh how I love buying something on line and getting the package in the mail.
Oh how I love pay day.
Oh how I love after I go grocery shopping and my cupboards are full.
Oh how I love watching something that can make me laugh out loud.
Oh how I love blasting music. At home, and in the car.
Oh how I love roasted starbursts. (FaveREDs to be exact)
Oh how I love watching sports that keep you on the edge of your seat.
Oh how I love Remember The Titans.
Oh how I love the cheesecake from El Torro Viejo.
Oh how I love sitting at the table to eat. We don't do that...ever.
Oh how I love the smell of clothes right out of the dryer.
Oh how I love getting dressed up. Although I never have a reason to.
Oh how I love when I come across something I forgot I recorded and watch it.
Oh how I love curling up in a papasan chair. (bowl chair)
Oh how I love how this list is helping me forget all my annoyances.
Oh how I love hanging out with my sisters.
Oh how I love ranch on my pizza.
Oh how I love wild sunflowers.
Oh how I love watching my puppies run and play with each other.
Oh how I love Michael. Enough said.
Oh how I love a good quote. One you can really relate to.
Oh how I love watching One Tree Hill.
Oh how I love blogging.
Oh how I love listening to a good cd for the first time. Or the first time in a long time.
Oh how I love looking at old pictures.
Oh how I love Spring weather.
Oh how I love bright colored flowers. Believe it or not I have some in my yard.
Oh how I love a much needed hug.
Oh how I love fruit. Apples, grapes, be specific.
Oh how I love whopper jrs.
Oh how I love watching tv to fall asleep.
Oh how I love romance.

I encourage everyone to make an "Oh how I love" list. Especially when you are angry at the world. I wasn't angry at the world today but I was just annoyed with a lot of things and it was making me grumpy and people I shouldn't be grumpy at. I look forward to reading everyone's lists! Now get to it! Go!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Raider NFL Draft 2010

This year Michael and I watched the draft together, and I actually enjoyed it. I loved watching it. So, I am going to do all of you a favor that missed it, and tell you all the Raiders picks. (Because those are the most important of course.) This blog us both of us talking. We had fun blogging together for a change.

Round 1: "With the 8th overall selection in the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raiders select middle linebacker Rolando McClain from Alabama."

Now, I was a little disappointed we skipped over Jimmy Clausen to get this guy but, apparently, he's worth it. He is 6'3". 254 lbs. He better be as great as his potential will allow him to be. He could be the next Patrick Willis/Ray Lewis. Basically, he is a beast.

Round 2: "With the 12th pick of round 2 in the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raiders select defensive tackle Lamarr Houston from the University of Texas."

Houston is 6'3", 305 lbs. A lot of people were surprised by the Raiders this year for their many good picks. This being one of them. Normally the Raiders get a lot of crap for the draft because they just pick random people. This year, they picked people that they needed to help them win games. These first 2 picks tell us that they are committed to stopping the run this year. Houston is great at taking blockers now but with the help of Seymore and Kelly, he can become a great all-around Defensive lineman.

Round 3: "With the 5th pick of the third round in the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raiders select offensive tackle Jared Veldheer from Hillsdale."

Veldheer is 6'8", 312 lbs. He is a small school standout so we hope he can perform in the NFL. He is the only offensive lineman to be in the top 10 at all Combine events. He could start right away because we need help on our line.

Round 4: "With the 8th pick in the 4th round in the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raiders selct offensive tackle Bruce Campbell from Maryland."

This guy is a freak! 6'6", 314 lbs. Who I consider the biggest steal of the draft behind Jimmy Clausen in the NFL draft (who went to the Panthers.) He broke the record for fastes 40 by a lineman ever at the Combine. He had first round potential. He has unlimited potential and Tom Cable is the perfect coach for him to showcase his potential. (That being said by a NFL Draft analyst). With the first 4 picks, the Raiders are showing they are committed to playing playoff football. Stopping the run, and running the football.

SHOCKER: The Raiders move up in the 4th round by trading Kirk Morrison :( to the Jacksonville Jaguars. To select Jacoby Ford a wide receiver from Clemson.

It's sad to see Kirk go, but it shows that we have lots of faith in Rolando McClain to make an impact right away. Jocoby Ford is 5'9", 186 lbs. Leave it to Al Davis to draft the fastest person in the draft. He is a slot receiver and kick returner. I'm ok with the pick because we definitely need help in our kick return game. When you kick return your fullback, it is a bad sign.

Round 5: "With the 7th pick in the 5th round of the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raider select Walter McFadden a defensive back from Auburn."

6'0" 175 lbs. (Needs to put on a little weight.) I like him because he shines on a big stage. In Auburn's bowl game he picked it and took it 100 yards for a touchdown. Impressive. He already has underrated cover skills and is a ball hawk. With the help from Nnamdi, he has a bright future ahead of him.

In the middle of round 5, the Raiders trade for Jason Campbell, a quarterback from the Redskins. For a 4th round pick in 2012 (which is a steal!) Because of the trade for Donovan McNabb, they were pretty much giving him away. I think he is already a top 15 quarterback in the NFL and he will bring an immediate impact to the Raider offense. And we couldn't be happier. Next step, CUT Jamarcus Russell. (Don't know if I spelled that right, and don't care either.)

Round 6: "For the 21st pick in the 6th round of the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raiders select Travis Goethel, a linebacker from Arizona."

He is 6'2", 240 lbs. Very athletic for his size. Brings depth to the linebackers, and can be an immediate impact on special teams.

Round 7: "For the 8th pick of the 7th round in the 2010 NFL Draft, the Oakland Raiders select Jeremy Ware, a deffensive back from Michigan State."

He is 5'10", 188 lbs. Another speed man. He ran a 4.3 40. He is going to have a hard time making a team with the Raiders' already stacked defensive backs.
With the 44th pick in the 7th round, the Oakland Raiders select Stevie Brown, a defensive back from Michigan." He is 6', 210 lbs. Good size. Brown can contribute immediately on Special times and might be able to find his way into the Raiders' secondary in a few years. He is better against the run than in coverage. It looks like we got another TyVon Branch/Mike Mitchell on our hands.

That's the end of the draft, but the Raiders were still adding talent to the team. They signed 5 undrafted free agents:
1- Andre Anderson, a running back from Tulane.
2- Brashton Satele, a middle linebacker/defensive end from Hawaii.
3- Alex Parsons, a right guard from USC.
4- Alex Daniels, defensive end from Cincinnati.
5- Manase Tonga, fullback from BYU.

In closing, the Raiders have had the best draft weekend in the last 5 years.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

"In the end the love between the Princess and the boy was undeniable and true. And, over time that love would see them through anything. Magical things happened to them, things they couldn't explain, much like love itself. And, like most fairy tales the Princess and the boy lived happily ever least I hope they do."

I have to admit, I'm a sucker for love stories. I cry in movies when the couple doesn't end up together. I get upset when celebrity couples break up. I love going to weddings as jealous as they make me. I love looking at engagement, wedding, and bridal pictures even if they are complete strangers. Call me crazy I love it all.

Now, I want EVERYONE'S feedback. Wether you are in a relationship, heartbroken, or any of the above, I want to hear your favorite love story. It can be your own or someone elses. It can be a proposal, a random romantic act, an anniversary, a first kiss, or a first date.

What brought this random blog on? Well I don't know actually. We are watching bride wars right now...kind of opposite of what kind of stories I want. Also, if you post a comment let me know if I can publish it in a blog to come. If you would rather, you can send it to my facebook inbox.

Ok, ready, set, comment! Cutesy stories blog post to come!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

10 things I love about...

(I got this idea from a good friend Amber who does this on her blog :) hope it's ok I stole this!)


1) I love the fact that Michael is so driven. He is at the moment working 2 jobs to make sure I get eveything I want and need.
2) He has such a good heart. Always willing to help his parents, his grandpa and anyone that asks.
3) He knows exactly what to say to me when I am having a bad day. He can get me to laugh and smile when I am in my worst moods. Sometimes it annoys me but I love that he can do that.
4) He is great with kids. He is so good to his nephew and I can only imagine how he will be with kids of his own.
5) He has a one of a kind sense of humor. He can make anyone laugh.
6) He makes good decisions and I love that about him. I can trust he is never going to do anything stupid and he will also teach our kids that same quality.
7) He is so real and it is so natural to him. He doesn't say or do things that he thinks will please people. He does them if it's the right thing to do or he simply does things for him.
8) I love that he HATES fighting. He was unfortunate to grow up around fighting so he can't stand it. I was lucky enough to never grow up around it so I don't like it either. So we have never really gotten in huge yelling fights with slamming doors. He hates it and I'm glad. He can't even stand when people fight around him. He won't put up with it.
9) This one is a little silly but I love how athletic he is. I hope it passes on to our kids because we are huge sports fans so being able to put our kids in sports would be so fun for us. He is so good at anything he tries and he has a good work ethic when it comes to sports. He believes if he works hard enough, he can be good at any sport. He also plans on teaching our kids that kind of work ethic.
10) And last and most definitely not least, he loves me more than I ever thought I could be love. Sure, some people may think we did things a little backwards, but it has been worth it. He respected me when we first started dating, he made sure to do whatever he could to get me the house I wanted even though there was a point when we didn't think we would, and he plans on spoiling me forever.

I am so grateful to have him in my life and can't imagine it without him. I can tell him anything and trust him with my secrets, fears, and dreams. I am so lucky that I have someone with such good values and strengths. (This could probably all be included in the list if I hadn't already used my 10. That's how you know he is truly amazing.)
Oh, one more thing that should have also been on the list. I love that he is probably the ONLY person I can be totally goofy, emotional, and my true self around. I love that he never once has made me feel like a dweeb.

these are a few pics of when we first started dating. it was perfect then and it's still perfect now.

Saturday, April 17, 2010


No offense to anyone living here but sometimes I just LOVE being home alone. I am home alone right now and kind of loving it. Here's why...

I seem to get more housework done when I am home alone. I did dishes, swept and mopped the kitchen floor, and did a load of laundry.

All while doing this I BLASTED Ke$ha. No one will listen to her with me in this house so being home alone means I can turn it up just as loud as I want.

While listening to Ke$ha I can once in a while sing along and not worry about being embarrassed for not knowing the words or even the tune.

I even will admit to you that I sometimes do some sweet dance moves. Ones I will ONLY do alone.

When there is nothing on TV, I don't have to settle for Sports Center, I can blast music instead.

When I am getting ready if I have something I need to wear that is down in the laundry room, I can run down and get it. Even if all I have on is my undies.

I like when I am home alone and my mom calls, when this happens I can tell her anything I want without worrying about being overheard.

I can read a good book such as 'The Last Song' by Nicholas Sparks, and when it gets sad I can cry without being embarrassed that I am crying over a story.

Same goes for some TV shows that make me emotional. What I am about to tell you doesn't leave this blog understand? Good. Sometimes when someone wins something, such as ABDC, I get emotional watching them celebrate. Taking in the win. Knowing that all there hard work pays off makes me happy emotional. On the other hand, when someone gets kicked off of a show, such as American Idol, it brings tears to my eyes. When Andrew Garcia got voted off and it showed his wife crying it broke my heart because I knew this meant a lot to him and my fingers are crossed that he continues to make music.

Sometimes, when I am home alone, I like to take goofy pictures. Sometimes I try to get some of my doggies and sometimes just of me. Totally random. Examples below.

One more thing among many that I love about being home alone, I love taking baths when I am home alone. I find it uncomfortable when I know there are people in my basement. Don't ask me why but for some reason it makes me feel weird to be taking a bath with "company" over.

here is an example of a random photo I took while home alone.
I'm a dork. I know. Don't judge me.

Monday, April 12, 2010


So there is this amazing song by Miranda Lambert that I LOVE. It is called 'The House That Built Me'. Everytime I hear it of course I think about the house we just bought. The song talks about her going and visiting the house she grew up in. Where she did her homework and learned to play guitar. I hope that someday this house is like that for our kids. I hope they cherish those memories and say that this house built them.

"I thought if I could touch this place I'll feel it,
This brokenness inside me might start healin.
Out here it's like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothin but a memory,
From the house that built me."

I already feel like this is a place I can be free and be myself. (It would be easier if we had it to ourselves but that's getting away from the subject a little) I feel like when I am home I can just be whole. After a bad day I can come home and just feel relaxed. I hope that someday my kids and even myself can look at this house as the house that built us. I hope we can heal the brokenness inside ourselves when we come back here. Where we see the faint line of awful border we painted over in the living room, and remember the day we painted it. I hope we have even more memories formed in this house. More house rennovations, more barbeques and parties, and more dinners home alone. And then someday when we have kids, I hope they have memories here too. Starting as young as first steps and working up to taking dance pictures on our front steps. This is a place I can see Michael and I making many many memories. I feel almost like we can't quite get started on that with certain people living with us. Soon. Soon we will be able to 'start our lives' so to say.


Friday, April 9, 2010


Things I want to do before I die...

1-Attend a Superbowl in which the Raiders are competing.

2-Attend a World Series in which the Yankees are competing.

3-Attend a Wrestlemania live.

4-Step foot on every continent.

5-Ride in a helicopter.

6-Ride in a bobsled.

7-Marry the love of my life (who is of course Michael).

8-Live long enough to see a great grandchild get married.

9-Swim with dolphins.

10-Have at least 2 kids preferably one of each.

11-Find my passion in life.

12-Make a difference.

13-Witness a miracle.

14-See Garth Brooks in concert.

15-See Reba in concert.

16-See a live talk show. (preferably Ellen)

17-Visit all 50 states.

18-Design a gown that walks down the red carpet.

19-Get a standing ovation.

20-Do everything on this list.

21-Help someone in need anonymously.

22-Own a Yorkie.

23-Be on tv.

24-Go to the top of the Statue of Liberty.

25-Go to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

26-Walk on the Great Wall of China.

27-Ride an elephant.

28-Get my house looking the way I want. Like it should be in a picture of a magazine.

29-Go on a hot air balloon ride.

30-See the glass slippers from the Wizard of Oz.

31-Keep a journal.

32-Ride a camel.

33-Shop in Paris.

34-Eat something exotic.

35-Go on a cruise.

36-Ride a mechanical bull.

37-Do something to make my parents proud.

38-Buy something in an auction.

39-Witness a part of the Olympics.

40-Go skinny dipping.

41-Go cliff diving.

42-Have a famous person talk directly to me on Twitter.

43-Go snorkling.

44-Ride in a submarine.

45-Attend a music awards show. Preferably country music.

46-Swim in the ocean.

47-Do something I thought I would never do. It can be anything!

48-Walk barefoot on the beach hand in hand with Michael. Preferably in the moonlight.

49-Kiss the love of my life while riding a beach side ferris wheel.

50-Have a great book signed by the author.

51-Go horseback riding on the beach.

52-Go to a couple of different churches just for the experience.

53-Watch the Jazz win the NBA finals.

54-Go parasailing.

55-Add more things to this list to make it even more challenging!

My list right now is a little pathetic. I hope to be adding more and eliminated more all at the same time! The ones that are crossed off have been done...obviously.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

12 Random Facts About Me

  1. I have been graduated for about 3 years and I still miss cheer. Sometimes I worry my high school days will be my best days.
  2. I hate doing dishes but I hate them not getting done more so I usually just do them.
  3. The Wizard of Oz is my all time favorite movie, and I collect anything and everything Wizard of Oz. I have quite the collection and I hope it grows.
  4. I care WAY too much what other's think about me, and I lose sleep over it sometimes.
  5. I used to make fun of snuggies until I came across a Wizard of Oz one. I own it.
  6. At Easter time I love peeps. Only at Easter. And only the Yellow Bunnies. No blue, pink, purple, or chickies.
  7. If I could live anywhere it would be A LOT closer to a beach.
  8. I love wrestling and people always shoot me down saying, "You know it's not real right?"  You know story lines, fighting, and relationships in movies aren't real right?
  9. DON'T call me short. It got old in like 6th grade. Seriously? Tell me something I don't know.
  10. When you ask me "When are you getting married?" It kind of angers me. I HATE talking about marriage.
  11. I have a twitter but I follow mostly celebrities. It makes me feel like they are my friends. Pathetic? I know.
  12. I am 21 years old and still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Well I want to be a stay at home mom but that isn't very realistic.
Now that I start thinking about things to put on my list it makes me think of even this may not be the first of a list like this. Stay tuned...

Monday, April 5, 2010

Feels good to get this off my chest

Religion has been on my mind A LOT lately.. To tell you the truth, I hate religion. I hate what it has done to my life, to my family, and to others around me. I hate that religion prevents people from being together. Take me and Michael for instance. If religion wasn't such a big issue, my family would be happy for me and Michael being together. I mean, we're the happiest couple I know and my family can't be happy for us. I hate that when religion is a conversation topic somewhere in there is a "My religion is better because..." Why can't there be one religion and one religion only?

When I moved out my parents insisted I went and talked to my bishop. Worst hour of my life. I asked him about still being welcome in the church and he said of course but that it would be like going to a gym and watching people work out. Ok, I understand why he would say that but I disagree. I feel like me going to church would be like me going to the gym and running a mile but then coming home and only walking around the block. I still have a place in my heart for my church. I have my beliefs about it, and I feel that me moving out didn't take the church out of my life completely. At least it shouldn't have. 
Another thing the bishop told me is he doesn't believe that what I am feeling is love. He thinks I am confusing it for something else. He feels that love requires sacrifice. I agree. I mean, that's what I am doing. I sacrificed some family, friends, the temple, and more to be with Michael and I feel it's worth it. He told me basically that I was confused. That sacrifice means giving up one thing for something better. Again, I agree. I feel that Michael is that something better. I feel he is way too good to me and I don't deserve it.
The bishop also told me that he felt I would only feel great saddness from my decision. That I also agree a way. He feels I will feel sadness when it comes to Michael. But actually, I feel sadness that Michael and I are each working 2 jobs to support his older brother. Who lives with us for free. I wish we could be spending more of our time alone instead of bringing him with us everywhere so he doesn't feel left out. Another example is Christmas, we spent a lot of everyone this year because his older brother didn't have money to buy gifts. So basically we bought gifts for him to give to people. I wish we could have spent that money on each other. Or on stuff for the house. Our house hasn't much makeover since we have moved in because we have had other things come up.

I admit I have only been to church once since I have moved out and here's why...
1- At the house we were renting the bishopric came to my house and introduced themselves to me. I went to church that very Sunday and they all introduced themselves to me again. They didn't remember coming into my home and inviting me to church.
2- NOBODY in my new ward has come to introce themselves to me. I don't know what time my church is or where it is. I don't know the bishop, his counselors or the relief society president. Obviously they don't care if I come or not.
3- I did happen to get a letter in the mail inviting me to come clean the church. So, they would love my help cleaning but don't think I would be an asset to the ward?

The funny thing about all of this is Michael doesn't care whether I go or not. He would love me no matter what I did and never judges me on if I go or not. He believes you can believe in God and don't have to go to church to prove it. He has a point. I pray. At home. Just because I don't go on a weekly basis doesn't mean I don't have a belief in Heaven or of God.

Michael and I are so happy and it breaks my heart that people around us can't be happy for us. If and when we get married I wonder if my family will support it. I wonder if they will contribute. I wonder if they will be happy for us.

This whole topic is always weighing on my mind and it stinks. I would love to just live happily ever after without worrying about what others think about our relationship and our situation.

So, if you are reading this and are judging my situation. Don't bother being a friend. I want friends that will love me no matter what choices I make even if they disagree. I want friends that would love to hang out with me and talk about girl stuff and not ask me a million times, "When are you getting married." Trust me, when I know, you'll know.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Jensen Easter 2010

First of all, HAPPY EASTER!!

My Easter Sunday started out with an experience I honestly thought I would never do...I went to Easter Mass with Michael, his grandpa and parents. Probably not something I will do again but it was a neat experience. After church we went to eat at J&D's. Michael's grandpa sure knows how to keep us entertained when we are waiting for food. He told joke after joke. One of them had a punch line where he hit himself in the head and it bumped his hat to the side. We told him he looked 'gansta' and he kept it that way the rest of breakfast.

"It's not gonna be breakfast by the time we get it, it'll be dinner!"

After breakfast Michael and I went right home and back to bed. Getting up that early is hard for us.

I have to say I am pretty lucky that Michael's mom still enjoys making everyone an easter basket because my mom basically refuses to make me one.

Michael and I opening our baskets. In mine was a candleholder, a necklace and some candy. Of course it included my favorite Easter treat Yello bunny peeps.

After our baskets were open it was time to get to the coloring of the eggs.
Michael and his brother tend to get "creative" when it comes to coloring eggs. If you don't watch rated R movies, DON'T look at the last few pictures. You were warned. Oh and p.s don't judge. Thanks.

Michael's nephew Kalel loves to growl.

Halfway through coloring them we decided to eat them.

And back to coloring. We tend to concentrate really hard.

Kylie's "preggo" egg and my "cracked egg with a chickie peeking through" egg.

Now, this next picture is the one I warned you about! Don't scroll down unless you think you can handle it!

That egg says cock-a-doodle-doo you sicko! I know what you were seeing!

Hope everyone had a happy easter! Until next time...

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Easter with the Family

Every year we do a big Easter Egg Hunt at my Grandma Hanks' house down in Salem. Hers are special. How she makes them special is she makes a hard boiled colored egg for each grandkid and writes their name on it and hides them all. Once you find your egg you take it back to her. She give the kids ages 5 and under a quarter in return for their egg, ages 6-11 a 50 cent piece and 12 and up a dollar coin. Of course this is my favorite part of Easter and I didn't get one this year. Once she considers you married you don't get one anymore. Big Bummer. Makes me want to be a kid again. It's a super fun tradition that I hope to keep going when I have grandkids someday. I don't know if I will ever have as many as she does...I lost count.

Because we didn't get to hunt for eggs us older kids had to find something else to entertain ourselves. Let me just tell you a little something about my cousins and my boyfriend, they are willing to do just about anything no matter how dangerous or dumb it might be. Michael saw a red wagon sitting in the driveway and thought it would be fun to have Cody sit inside and push him down the gravel driveway... Of couse Cody was up for it and Zach also got excited for this adventure so away we went. It would be much easier to show you rather than tell you how this all went down.

All was going well until Zachary (whose hands you see on Cody's shoulders in the picture below) decided to jump on back...

Needless to say, this wagon is now hidden from the owner.
Never a dull moment when we all get together. (You should see us in a house that is about to get torn down.)

All in all we had a great time as always. I love getting together with my whole family (even though there were a few missing...we are spread from California to Maine) I always am sad to say goodbye but look forward to our next shinannigans.

Me and my sister Jodi.

Me and my Cousin Tish.

And the whole gang. Michael, Tish, Me, Jodi, Cody, Zach and Rochelle.

See you guys next time! Can't wait!

Friday, April 2, 2010

How to Deal...?

I have never had to deal with suicide before. Especially someone I knew and loved. How do you deal with that? On the one hand I am so shocked she would think that that is the way out. So sad for her loss. Wished I would have called her more. On the other hand I am so angry with her for doing that to herself when she had so much going for her. She was a beautiful, happy person and there was no reason for this. I am so angry that she would take the easy way out. She had the strength to deal with anything thrown her way and she chose not to. I just don't understand what could have been going through her head at that moment. Tomorrow is her funeral and I am unable to attend and it breaks my heart. I wish I could be there to say goodbye.
So to Jessica, I am so sorry I wish I could be there tomorrow. I wish we could have partied even just one last time. I wish you wouldn't have done this to yourself.  I can only hope that you are in a happy place but I miss your crazy butt dearly. Love you.

Jessica Turner 10/17/87-3/28/10