"I thought if I could touch this place I'll feel it,
This brokenness inside me might start healin.
Out here it's like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothin but a memory,
From the house that built me."
I already feel like this is a place I can be free and be myself. (It would be easier if we had it to ourselves but that's getting away from the subject a little) I feel like when I am home I can just be whole. After a bad day I can come home and just feel relaxed. I hope that someday my kids and even myself can look at this house as the house that built us. I hope we can heal the brokenness inside ourselves when we come back here. Where we see the faint line of awful border we painted over in the living room, and remember the day we painted it. I hope we have even more memories formed in this house. More house rennovations, more barbeques and parties, and more dinners home alone. And then someday when we have kids, I hope they have memories here too. Starting as young as first steps and working up to taking dance pictures on our front steps. This is a place I can see Michael and I making many many memories. I feel almost like we can't quite get started on that with certain people living with us. Soon. Soon we will be able to 'start our lives' so to say.
"THE HOUSE THAT BUILT ME"
Anecia, that is a beautiful song... And I have faith that this will be the home that builds you and your "family". I feel for you sincerely when you struggle with certain people living in "YOUR HOME" I wish it was as easy said as it is easily written to tell him to grow up and take care of his own responsiblities instead of leaning on a young couples support.. If you need anything; someone to talk to, hang out with, heck even RANCH, we are right down the street! We love you guys..
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